I don't konw what to say but the fact that I realised is I am an isolated guy who merely lost connection to the world.

I am totally alone.Is this my fate?Why this continuing happened on me?I am not blaming but just want to find out the reason.

Study in the middle of the night,when desire to have somebody to chat with,turnaround but no one close beside me.I admit that I have quite number of friends,but friend that like kind of 'soulmate' seems very far to me.Merely unreachable.I could alone face all those difficulties alone and without any hope to rely on others.This doesn't mean that I am a petty person who never help people.I always offer my hand to others but at the end what I get return is completely zero.

As a wise investor,I will first consider what I am going to invested will at least get the return.But recently I don't know why my brain has gone wrong,doing things that never have any returns.I feel like I am acting as a fool and also as tool of others.

Sigh,all things came and gone in a blink  of eye.Perhaps,lonely is the adjective which carves on my back.