2006-09-28 21:34:00
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Never cast a shadow in life, for that will keep you pressed and denied a breath.
People often think that sadness occur to everyone and their occurences make a life whole with meanings, while people also expect that greater happiness always surface after sadness and deminish the depth of the scars.
Maybe this is an optimistic way of defining life and a self-rescue mechanism to make oneself happier, at least, feels happier. Deeper in mind, one can never hide from the shadow and get themselves out of it once it is casted. To ignore is simply to disrespect, to hide is simply being coward, to deny is simply...lying.
I've had in my mind several big, heavy shadows and I have strived with all my best energy and desire to shake them off me, without finally being successful. They are there, and always there. Where I go is where they will be, where I was is where they came from. Shadows.
The existence make me worry, and feeling hurt whenever they try to make an impact. They do, however, despite the fact that I attempted not allow them to. They prevails over me all the time, like devil, fighting agaisnt my rightous side again and again, and weakens my spirit.
I don't know for how long I will hold onto my belief, and for how long I would be able to battle with the shadows. Maybe I should let them go and effect their purpose, maybe I should admit that they exist for a reason, a reason understood solely by myself.
I shall not restrain myself too long and shall not let my spirit suffer from what I do not deserve, I will let go one day when I'm up to the limit and not let the shadows to ruin any more of my precious moment which I shall then enjoy.
Sometimes, I just need to learn to let go... let go...the shadows which hurts me like needles, which bruises me inside, and refined me to be self cherish.
I will lighten the shadows.
